Wow, nobody goes on Xanga anymore! Surprisingly, I still remembered my password. I am so not used to not doing anything. I like being busy than being idle.  

So, I just graduated. Yes, I am an engineer now but for some reason, I am not satisfied with what I got. In October, I will be taking the Engineer-in-Training exam. That's the first step that needs to be taken to get the Professional Engineering (PE) license. It's not really required but since I want to be hotter and making more money than everyone else, I want to have the P.E. license.

How much are you? Let me buy you.

PISSED.

I guess it's the stress again that's making me moody but I just need to let some anger out since I don't have anyone to talk to at the moment. You know, everyone has something going on with his/her life. If you chose to be what/where you are now, don't complain! If there's something that you need to do or that was obligated for you to do because you are part of it, please quit giving lame excuses that "I'm so busy with this and that...so I can't finish it rightnow" Really, I ain't buying that crap! Don't get committed to something and hope to get by and let someone else do the fucking work for you.

In addition to that, I'm so tired of listening to people's problems about other people that I don't even personally know over and over and over again. Really, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. I only give a damn about people I know. Why would I even wanna hear or be concerned about those issues/people? How many times do you want to hear my opinions/advices? Why keep showing me photos of these people and ask me what I think about them...(Hey Rach, look at this girl..is she hot? My friend was trying to go for her...he said she's doable)???? Doable?? I don't need to hear this crap!

SO ANNOYING! Ok, this is getting hilarious now.

I really want to get a tattoo.  I'm curious how painful it can get. lol. I might just get one, just a tiny one. I mentioned it to my parents and my dad said 'NO!' Well, no need to tell my parents..I'll just do it. Once it's there, then it's there. There's nothing that they could do, right? Only thing I wouldn't like is how the tatt would look like when I get old. But then again, why worry about that now? I'll worry about that later. hehe.

School gets stressful every week. Senior project is a pain in the butt but it is fun so far. Materials engineering class no fun. Software engineering class not interesting. If I had a choice, I wouldn't even bother to take those 2 classes. Why oh why.

I cannot believe that this is my last semester. I think I always say that and it's pissing me off how I need to always say it. I'm a bit excited and worried. I wonder what my life will be like 12 months from now.. Actually, I wonder where/what I will be 5 years from now. Most def, not getting married. What's up with people keep asking me "so when's the wedding Rachel?" Do they ask so that they wouldd know if they need to pull out their Abba- Take a Chance on Me song? just wondering....

kidding!

I thought that my xanga account has been hacked. I just realized that I actually changed my password and just forgot about it, haha! Hey, I've been sleep deprived so what do you expect!

Yes, I've been sleep deprived or should I say- I have insomnia- and I've been having some chest pain. I've only been getting 3 hours of sleep every day. I still managed to go to the gym though- trying to make myself more tired then maybe I can get a good sleep at night. The workout didn't really do me any good. In fact, it made things a lil worse. But I don't care. I need to workout since I haven't been sleeping well and I don't want to gain much weight from being sleep deprived.

I don't want to die yet! OK, I know that's not going to happen anytime soon but really, I'm tired and I'm jealous of people who get 7-8 hours of sleep every night! Maybe this is the reason why I find it hard to focus on things at times and I look older than my lil sister (duh) because I haven't been getting enough sleep.

So, I had some New Year's Resolution. I posted them on my myspace but I really think there are only a few that I can do:
 

1. Workout
2. Play this Vandross
3. Save Money 

If you are on my myspace, please free to check the original post, hehe. To be honest, I dont really want to make any more resolutions because I don't even follow them. I know that I can't help not to swear when I'm mad. I know I can't help not to smoke when I'm stressed out. I know that it would be hard to go out/hang out and drink when I'm feeling very tired. I know that I'm still going to have arguments/fights with family/bf. I know that I'm still going to be mean/make fun of some people. But most definitely, I know for sure that if I get enough sleep this year then I might just turn out to be the girl who looks like Angelina Jolie. jk. I do, however, want to party a lot this coming semester since it's my last one. Well, not really my last semester since I'm thinking of taking masters but I'll surely miss my college years.

Here's a survey that I stole from  my sister's xanga. It's been awhile since I did one of these. Since I'm old, I'll allow myself to feel younger:

What's the last thing that felt good?
BACK MASSAGE. MY BF GIVES THE BEST MASSAGES EVER. NO CHARGE. HAHA.

How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else?
I WOULDN'T GIVE A DAMN

Who was your last hug?
 MY DOG MIKEY

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
WHY NOT?! I ACTUALLY WOULD LIKE TO FIND A JOB IN LA OR SAN DIEGO.  

Honestly, what are you sick of?
INSOMNIA

Are you in a good mood right
now?
NOT REALLY. SHOW ME AN ANNOYING FACE AND I'LL PUNCH IT.

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone with for over an hour?
I DONT TALK ON THE PHONE FOR OVER AN HOUR ANYMORE. I DID BEFORE WITH MY BF.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
YES.

Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
 NO. I WOULD LIKE TO BE A CHEERLEADER WHEN IM 60

Do you take compliments well?
I SAY 'I KNOW RIGHT'

Has a boy/ girl ever called you babe or baby?
YES

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
YES, I'D RATHER SMOKE AROUND THEM

Do you like to take walks?
YES, IT HELPS YOU BURN SOME CALORIES.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
NO. NOT UNTIL 2085.

Do you have anything that belongs to an ex-boyfriend or ex- girlfriend?
I THREW THEM AWAY LONG TIME AGO.

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
MY MOM I THINK.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
YES.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
GAP

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
I HAVE TO SINCE I WANT TO SHOW THEM THAT I'M A GOOD GIRL-BUT- I DON'T WANT TO BECAUSE I'M NOT A GOOD GIRL.

Do you mind being cold?
DEPENDS. WHEN THE workout IS BEING DONE, THEN OF COURSE NOT

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
YES. THE HANDS THE HANDS

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
YES.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
NO 

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
I WOULDN'T WANT TO UNTIL THE TALK HAS BEEN MADE.

Do you want kids?
I WOULD LIKE TO SAY NO SINCE I DON'T LIKE KIDS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. BUT, THERE IS A BUT.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
STAYED IN. TOO TIRED TO GO OUT.

Who was the last person to give you a ride somewhere, not family?
MY BF

What's something you really want right now?
THE TWO WORKOUTS

Do you like to text or call more?
I CALL WHEN THERE'S SOMETHING THAT I NEED/WANT TO KNOW IMMEDIATELY. OTHERWISE, TEXT IS BETTER.
 
Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
IF THAT EVER HAPPENS, I'D PUNCH MY BF IN THE BALLS, AND PUNCH MY BEST FRIEND IN THE BOOBS.
 
Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
SOBER

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
WHY NOT. IF THAT WILL MAKE YOUR SAD FACE HAPPY.

My sister Diane has moved out. I just want to let her know how much I'm missing her.

I miss having someone like her to piss off. I miss the times when she got so irritated because I was very irritating. I miss studying in front of her. I miss seeing her eating all the time(I'm not saying that she's fat). I miss coming home at night and seeing her on her laptop with headphones on (she loves to watch porn everyday. jk). I miss her cookings. I miss how she would go to the living room, turn on the t.v, sit on the couch with her laptop, and munch on something. I miss how she'd listen to her songs so loud wearing her headphones, which annoyed me sometimes but that's cuz I was trying to study! I miss hearing her cell phone ringtone. I miss hearing her talking to people on the phone so loud. I miss how she'd take care of the printer ink when it's ran out. I miss her yelling at me when I get so loud. I miss making our dog Mikey cry so loud while she was still sleeping. I miss seeing her make her coffee almost every morning. I'd miss the feeling of getting annoyed when she'd sing karaoke (it's because I can't sing). I miss how she'd get so mad when I play rock music so loud. I miss how she could be really funny when she's not even trying to be funny. I miss seeing her taking pictures of herself, other people, and things all the time. I miss her everytime I see her nursing books. I miss her everytime I see the "coffee candies" in her drawers. I miss her everytime I see the coffee blender. And I'm missing her while I'm writing this.

She will be away from home for 3 years. That's a long time. It's OK, when she comess back I'll ask her for a lot of money.

Who knows? Maybe I'll be away from home too after I graduate. Maybe I'll find a job somewhere in New Mexico. When that happens, maybe I'd get a "I miss Rachel letter" too from someone close. But then again, I'm a stubborn annoying kid that everybody hates.